– How do I Know..........
In Reply To
"The Cost of Following Jesus" Luke 9:57-62 Touched on my ordeal. Besides the flying, my other hang up is leaving my 4 yr old twins for so long. I've never been apart from them for long. I don't like too be away from any of my children but my twins are my babies. Luke 9: 61- Still another said, "I will follow you, Lord; but first let me go back and say good-bye to my family." 62- Jesus replied, "No one who puts his hand to the plow and looks back is fit for service in the kingdom of God." I'm pretty much saying the same thing to Jesus. I want so much to follow Jesus and surrender my life to him but lets wait until the twins are older. With strong drugs, I'll get over my fear of flying for the moment. In researching what the two verses meant. I came across this: To follow Christ is to loosen your grip on the things that normally provide physical and emotional security. Jesus made it clear that He must be the top priority in our lives, even above one's family. "Put his hand to the plow and looks back" means looking over your shoulder while plowing, making it impossible to plow a straight furrow. We must focus on serving Him as we move ahead at His command. My children and husband give me that security. I worry with the up coming decisions I will make on going on the mission trip. Day 2: Luke 12: 22-26 is titled " Do Not Worry"
22- Then Jesus said to his disciples: "Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat; or about your body, what you will wear. (skip to) 25-"Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life? 26-Since you cannot do this very little thing, why do you worry about the rest?" Just as I was starting the next day, I was getting a little discouraged on what I was suppose to be understanding and learning. Well, the topic was "Keep your Lamps Burning." It's not only so you will be ready when he comes but it's also so you will know him when you see him. In the New testament, it talks of scholars' of the Bible and the law but yet when he was right there in their face, they didn't know who he was. They didn't believe him. They were threatened by him. It reminds me of when Hunter, our oldest was having pain in the lower part of his tummy. I felt there was more to it than what the lead surgeon thought. He made me feel so low on my ability to know there was something wrong with my own child that I almost walked out with Hunter and took him home. I was just a momma and he had the education to KNOW Hunter was ok and I was just being crazy. I'm thankful for the Surgeon's education because 4 hours later, he was the one using his education to remove Hunter's appendix. He might have the knowledge but Hunter was a part of me and I KNEW my son. Jesus wants us to know him like I KNOW my sons, my daughters and my Husband.
How do I know them so well? Because, I spend time with them, I talk to them, I want to know EVERY part of their live, I love them and most of all they are a PART of me and I'm a part of them forever (eternity). I do pray that when the day finally comes for our Savior to come back, I will know him without any doubts.
Whew!! I finished week 7 in Beth Moore's "Jesus the One and Only." I still have to listen to my Cd however, that's more of a treat to hear. As I finished the last paragraph on Day 5, I thought back to how deep this week has been trying to dig out of me. Although, I thought I'd never get it and give it up before the end of the week, I'm glad I didn't. I realize that maybe the reason I had to dig deep within this week is because I had some questions on decisions I needed to make that I just didn't know what to do. Some of you may know that Jon is going on his first mission trip in a few weeks over to Russia. He has always had this pull from within to go to Russia and now he gets to go and discover what God has in store for him spiritually. Our oldest went on a mission trip last summer to an orphanage in Honduras and it gave him a different perspective on his own life. He's going again this summer and I have the chance to go. I'm nervous and unsure of going. I have flown and I don't fear others flying. I just prefer to keep my feet on the ground.