I’m labeling this blog entry the way I have felt all day, Inadequate. In the Webster dictionary means: not adequate : insufficient not capable <was inadequate as a leader. How many have felt this same way when it comes to telling a person about the word of God? Many of us more than likely do, otherwise there would be a lot more Christians leading people to God, which in turn would create a lot more Christians. I know that not everyone can preach, lead a Sunday school class or publish a book that adequately explains the Bible. However, everyone has some sort of gift that can bring another person to our Heavenly Savior Jesus Christ. I don’t feel adequate enough to do this blog but I’m trying. I’ve been told in the past that God brings you out of your comfort zone and uses you for his glory. I tried to use that to talk me into selling my current home and getting something bigger. My current house is my comfort Zone but a little tight at times and moving into a bigger house would make me feel a little uncomfortable along with the larger mortgage payment that I would be not capable of paying. Isn’t that the definition of Inadequate? I would be put into an inadequate state. However, I don’t think that is the comfort zone he was trying to move me out of.
Friday night, I was with my kids plus 3 nieces and 1 nephew at Burger King then we loaded up and when to the hospital to visit my grandma. I was in my comfort zone. I know that makes a lot people wonder where my head is and my response is: ‘Where’s your sense of adventure?’ Saturday we did our usual routine of soccer games in the morning. Hot Shots won!!! Yay! And, afterwards went to my brother’s subdivision for one of my niece’s birthday parties. We stayed there until 5. Then, the twins and I went to Publix to get some groceries for my husband to cook dinner. The kitchen is not my comfort zone unless I’m baking. I think it’s funny when I take the twins with me anywhere without another adult because of the comments I get, especially the grocery store. I choose to go to Publix because it has the two-seater shopping cart with two steering wheels for each of the girls. The girls love it and I get to shop without too much fuss. The famous comment all parents of twins get is: “Are they twins?” or “Double Trouble.” The two funny questions I got yesterday were: “Boy, you sure did have them close together!” & “Are they like the Juicy Fruit Twins?” Then the people will tell me how brave I am to take them out by myself. I just shake my head at that one. They’re my kids, why wouldn’t I take them out by myself. But, then I realize that those people would probably be brave taking out two kids. To me, it’s my comfort zone. Now, I’m not saying I don’t get stressed taking them out at times, that’s a part of life. I enjoy teaching my cubbies on Wednesday nights. Now, if you were to take me out of my cubbies and put me with the youth, I would be out of my comfort zone. I think God uses our inadequate feelings to show us that he is right there to back us up and give us courage to do his will. I also think that the Devil uses our inadequate feelings to stop us from doing God’s will. So, my question is how do you know if it’s the devil using those feeling to hinder us from doing God’s will or if we really didn’t get God’s message clearly? We already feel inadequate either way.
I’m lucky enough to have people in my life that encourage me to write, a few friends and my family. I’m surrounded by my church family, that are way above me in quoting scriptures out of the Bible and knowing the meanings behind them. This morning in Sunday school class, our teacher had asked us if we had a scripture that helps us and I couldn’t tell them where it was. I just knew what it meant to me. I was able to give them part of it and they told me where to find it in the Bible. It’s in Jeremiah 29:13: You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. I know where it is now. The reason why this comforts me is because it was a turning point in my life to follow Jesus and ask him into my life. It’s the directions to our salvation! Seeking God fully and giving him your all with all your heart is how I feel his presences in my life.
Today in church our preacher told us about some of the details of what Christ went through for us. Have you seen the ‘Passion of the Christ?’ Well, I was told today that it does not totally depict what Jesus went through for us. People back then were skilled at inflicting the kind of pain on a person so that with each hit the pain was worse than the one before and that most people don’t survive the beating and were still nailed to the cross dead. If they did survive the beating, you couldn’t recognize that person, he was beaten so badly. Jesus endured the beating and carried his own cross up the place of the Skull with help from Simon from Cyrene. He did that for our sins. He was nailed to the cross alive. He was made fun of in Luke 23: 35-37: The people stood watching, and the rulers even sneered at him. They said, “He saved others; let him save himself if he is the Christ of God, the Chosen One.” 36 The soldiers also came up and mocked him. They offered him wine vinegar 37 and said, “If you are the king of the Jews, save yourself.”
Jesus was never into saving his self. He knew what had to be done and did it. Not only did he suffer the pain of being beaten, for the first time in his life he was without God in his life for 6 hours. (You could have heard that at our morning sermon or find it for yourself in Luke 23:44.) God could not look at sin and Jesus took all our sin away so we could have everlasting life. The sad thing is in our lifetime, we get to choose to not have God in our life. Jesus didn’t choose to have God out of his life for those 6 torturous hours; he did it because he knew that was the only way to save us.